And by thirty eight i mean that I took this photo last week and as of today i’m technically one year older - but let’s not get lost in the details 😬
If I sat my 18-year old self down asked him where he’d be in his late thirties, I’d bet he’d say “I don’t know- married with kids, i guess? Working all the time. Doing middle-aged people stuff.” Yet, here i am: homeless, nomading from place to place, and sleeping in a hostel in Jackson Hole 😆
But let’s make one thing abundantly clear: i had absolutely no idea what i wanted out of life at 18. And I had even less of an idea at 28 - playing lawyer, putting on a suit and tie everyday, and trying to find my place in the world. That wasn’t what i wanted. and i still couldn’t tell you what i wanted out of life 😞
And now here at 38-ish, i still have absolutely no idea what i’m doing. But for the very first time in life, I know exactly what I want. I want to adventure. I want to explore. I want to see everything this great big world has to offer. And to make the most of every single solitary second that I get to live in this life 🙌
I have no idea how far this journey will take me, where I’ll be living next week, or how this all will end - but for the first time in forever - i can say that i am truly living. experiencing life, emotions, joy, pain, struggle, success, heartache, and happiness. Living an open-ended life with unlimited possibilities before me 🚶🏻♂️
So, what would my 18-year old self say to me now, seeing where I’ve been and who i have become?
“That’s pretty damn cool, my man. you turned out alright. I’m proud of you.”
So yea, this is 38. or 39. Whatever. It’s just a number. But it’s also the start my next chapter and the next step on one hell of a life journey. I had no idea this was the road i would travel in life - but destinations are often a surprise to the destined - and this was how my life was meant to unfold ⏳
So, what’s next for me? An open road, a little less time on my hands, and a lot more time to dream, discover, and explore. The first 38 have been great, let’s see what 39 has in store. Onward and upward ✨